how could you? of all the people i know.. does it feel so good to hurt me? of all the people i know... you might have meant it as a joke, who knows? but it doesn't change the fact that i felt hurt.. i would never do anything to hurt you.. i look up to you so much, like a big sister, yet you still think i would stab you in the back? am i that untrustworthy? am i that bad? if so then why do you still give me the time of day? was it all just a facade? honestly, do you take for a fool? then it's over....
i have seen myself. i am the extra guy.. y'know, the dood who always does his best to help but never gets anything in return.. the roadkill on the side of the road.. they look at me as if i was shit on a stick.. and he can't see past his bloated ego far enough to know that all his narcissistic words hurt others... i'll admit that he's good, just not as good as he lets on... god, i sound like an asshole.. maybe i am.. but you know what? i'd rather sit on the sidelines and watch than become as big-headed and self-centered as he has... go to hell....
i can survive on my own, thank you very much. i've had enough. PAULORD WANTS OUT.
